For awhile now, I have had the growing sense of being out of balance--
as if I had wondered off the path I should be on.
When I was working, outside the home, my day had more of a pattern, more of a rhythm to it.
I had a huge amount of responsibility and I knew,
almost unconsciously what had to be done,
how it had to be done
and when it had to be done.
I worked 4 days a week and had 3 off;
it was a great work schedule.
And I was grateful to my employers for allowing me to have it.
But I missed being home--
so finally, after much prayer and my DH's agreement,
I left my job.
It was the right decision and I don't regret it!
I LOVE being home--
I love being free to talk and text with family and friends
when there is a need or just a desire to.
But, on the other hand,
I also left behind my innate sense of discipline as regards to work,
and that has left me increasingly stressed and unhappy.
I hope that makes sense.
Despite the many challenges I have in my life right now,
I just cannot put it off any longer---
I need to regain a more disciplined life again--
I need to regain a more disciplined life again--
at home, because that is my work now.
Yes, I can and will still have freedom to stop and chat,
photograph a pretty scene, travel, smell the roses, etc;
but I think, no I know,
I will appreciate these things even more if I develop more discipline at home.
And this is where fellow blogger, Momzoo (Aimee) comes in.
I have been following her for quite awhile now and have found,
over these years that
I appreciate her honesty and kindness,
the genuine love she has for her family and country,
her down to earth manner
and her willingness to share her God-given gifts of cooking
and other homemaking skills with others...
Recently she posted her weekly schedule
and it fit SO well with my life and was SO simple,
that I knew this was the answer I was seeking...
and I began to have some hope again in regards to taming my beast (this house).
So...I have begun to follow her schedule,
albeit with a few modifications
due to the challenges I am dealing with right now
(staying twice weekly at my sib's home,
when they are out of town,
to watch my elderly father;
dealing with our house issues;
some fear/anxiety over certain circumstances in my life right now;
playing catch up).
I hope that soon I will be living a more balanced and
a more disciplined life
at least as far as work is concerned:)
Next task: Finding balance health wise.
Blessings, Aimee
Note: I know I've already thanked you Aimee (momzoo) on your blog
but I truly am grateful for your transparency and honesty and want to do it again here :)
Photo: peaceful sunset at Neskowin.
2 comments:
I have been trying to think of what to say for the last few days... But since I can't think of anything profound I will just simply say "Beautiful, inspired, thanks, loves and prayers!"
You are TOO kind! The same back at ya:)
Be blessed,
Aimee
PS: I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel in some places at home now. I just keep telling myself that everything does not have to be completed in one day...
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