04 August 2010

The Word on Wednesday

Before I answered our ringing phone I knew who it was.
Over the next few moments my sibling explained what mom's tests had revealed in terms of diagnosis and prognosis.
It was not good news, but many of the questions we had all been asking over the last few months now had answers. There would not be much time left and some things had already slipped away--soon our prayer warrior would be gone and life would never be the same again. Honestly, it already felt different.
Phone call ended, headache birthed, I told my DH I was going outside and stepped out onto our deck. As of late my thoughts had been “It’s TOO soon, God!” and “I’m NOT ready“ - the latter meaning more then just the obvious.
I was filled with emotion and yet at the same time felt empty.
But as I left our home and stepped out, over the threshold, into the world God had created, His grace came down. It reached out to me as I stood there, in pain, and touched me with
His Words-eternal words.
It said-"Be still and know that I am God”.
Above me the sky, His sky was blue. A Stargazer Lily and our fragrant vine, both part of His handiwork, cast their fragrance and beauty across the upper pond from me.
To tell the truth, I had forgotten about the lily even being there; it had been so long since I had seen its bloom and its beautiful pink now caught my eyes and so I walked closer.
Further from my world and deeper into His.
And in the distance stood my mountains--
His mountains--
against the blue of the summer sky.
The Creator had spoken--not audibly--
but nevertheless His message of comfort for me was clear.
The One who made all of the nature as far as I could see--
the One who had brought me and my mom into being
was still there; at that moment and at my location.
There would be sorrow, yes, much of it;
tears have already been shed and more will come.
But there will also be certainty for mom and us--
for when the time arrives for us to say our final goodbyes on this side of heaven--
the One my mother has known intimately for most of her life
will be waiting on the other side to bid His daughter, my mom, welcome.
"Be still and know that I am God"
Yes, Lord, by Your grace I will.
“…to have information firmly in the mind“.
“be certain about something: to believe firmly in the truth or certainty of something”
“…to be…familiar with somebody”
“…identify somebody or something by a characteristic: to recognize somebody or something by a distinguishing characteristic or attribute”
May you know His grace & blessings this morning,
Note: definitions for the word 'know' excerpted from Encarta ® World English Dictionary © & (P) 1998-2004 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.
Bible verse: Psalms 46:10 KJV


Heather's Blog-o-rama said...

Aimee... I'll be keeping you in my prayers. I know we haven't met in person, but I think that common bond we have in Jesus Christ is awesome. I'll be keeping you and the rest of your family in my prayers. there's never right words to say, but what I do love is that in the midst of your sadness, difficulty etc...you are pointing your eyes toward God!!! That's the number one best thing any of us can do :) :) :) Extra love and hugs for you today from Oregon, Heather :)

sallyo said...

Beautiful, heartfelt post. Sending thoughts and prayers your way at this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

May God's grace comfort you during this moment while you are walking through the valleys of life. You and family are in our prayers. God bless, Lloyd

aimee said...

Thank you so much everyone for your kindness to me and my family! God be with you all:)
Blessings always,

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